So I guess starting this blog was a good thing. I was forced off my post earlier due to break being over, and I found myself thinking about what I wanted to say next.
It's like introducing yourself to a new friend. You get the excitement of retelling all about yourself like you're saying it all to a brand new person, it doesn't even matter if someone is reading or not. And since I don't care if anyone reads or not, I can take all damn day to get to a point if I want to.
But to the point. I should set up myself, I suppose.
I live in northern michigan and work in housekeeping at a hospital. I live with my friend and her fiance who currently own a house in the same small town I work in. I have a boyfriend going to college to be a pilot, and he spends most nights over with me, although we sleep seperate. I myself have no desire to go to college.
Everyone asks after high school "What are you going to do now? Where are you going to go to college?" And then I was tasked with the semi awkward situation of trying to explain I had absolutely no desire to go to college. I have no idea what I want to do. I wasn't about to put myself into debt without even having a direction in life yet. I don't regret it, either. If I find something I decide I want to do, I can always go back to college later.
I have a dog, and my housemate has two of her own. My dogs name is Abby, she is a German Sheperd/Rottweiler mix. She is the first dog thats every truly been mine, and the first big dog I've ever really had in my life. I absolutely adore the crap out of her, she is my pretty puppy princess.
Also, I would not have picked the name Abby for her. But alas, thats the name she had at the shelter. I'm sure I'll tell Abby's adoption story at some point.
\I am somewhat frustrated with my life at its current point. Every day is a little stale. Although I suppose its not monotony I don't like, its just the wrong things are monotonus.
I feel cramped in my living conditions, which is no fault of my roomies. Confining all your belongings to a small room (with a sad little closet) is just a little tiresome. I am not always the neatest person, and there tends to be a good amount of overflow. However I cannot afford a place of my own, its quite expensive in this area to find a place. Plus I am somewhat limited since I have to look for somewhere that allows an 80 pound Shep/Rott mix. Those breeds are both frowned upon.
I am also tired of working. But I suppose there exists in this world a lot of people who don't want to work. So really I can't complain too much about that. And I am thankful that at least I have a job that pays me a decent wage for what I do.
But really I'd rather be housewifing. I'd like to learn to cook. I'd like to get more dogs. I think I'd really enjoy dog breeding. It'd be something to do moreso as a hobby than strictly to make money, though. Probably, anyway.
I want kids. At least two, I think. And raising kids is a full time job itself.
I think it would be fun to learn a second language. I'd like to think if I had the time, I would pick up Roesetta Stone or something similar and try to teach myself.
Small silly things like that. But I suppose if my life continues down the path its on, I could have these things.
Boyfriend is training to be a pilot, and hopes to get a good job somewhere down the road. Piloting jobs pay pretty decently, and he has no problem with the fact I don't really want to work. So assuming things keep progressing well... but he won't be done with his classes for two, maybe three more years. And I don't think its officially been said between us (I don't remember) but I think marruage is out of the question until after that point.
So its like I can have all these things I want, but for now they are being dangled out of reach. And they are not things I want to wait for, not things I planned to wait for. I was hoping to be at least a little further along in my goals at this point in life. But I am young, so perhaps I was expecting too much too quickly.
Sometimes I fantasize about dropping my life and going somewhere else. I wouldn't of course. But it's exciting to think about. Drop everything and leave the country maybe. Meet new people and make new friends, maybe find someone to take me in until I can get on my feet.
Probably impossible in these times, though. A new state maybe, a new country not so easy.
But its not something I think I could really go through with. I have my ties here. My Friends, my Boyfriend.
But I guess I'd never really know for sure unless an oppurtunity cropped up.
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